Was it not being so thoughtful or solicitous??

Yesterday, 23-rd October 2009, was an important day for a childhood friend of mine. Indeed, the most important day for a man, when a person becomes a full man, an occasion we call a marriage.We grew up in the same town, went to same primary school, attended same university. But the fact that I wasn't there to attend such an important event in his life is something I never thought would happened. It was an important event to me too. Indeed it could have been the most important moment in my life.I prefer here not to make the reason public, but I had my own reason then, by which the occasion could have changed my life. What an incapable, unable, thoughtless or unsolicitous friend I was. Can't avoid from regretting ...
As a matter of fact, this is not the first time I have not being solicitous to my friends. There had been, a couple of, more marriage I had missed. And I am so shameful of my this inability. Because I couldn't show my face on those important days, the guilty feeling always lingers in my mind, due to which meeting again is not just the same it used to be earlier. It is strange, I mean, why is it that things have to be like this. We try to make things better, to let not such things happen. But still, we cannot avoid to not let it happen. Of course, everybody has a life to live. And to live we struggle. We work to feed ourselves. Why can't feeding ourselves become second to making our friends and people we know happier, fulfilling the needful act of a true man. I wonder....